Bye July, Hello August + Reality!!
Howdy Folk! Been a longtime! Hope you are all ace!!
Th’as been an interesting month indeed. New love - now old, 32 days living in 37 other peoples pockets, many memories, many, many good times and the best day of my *entire* life. Not bad, infact I am chuffed! I am going to do an entire chronological write up as it’s “a good story” (big-ups to Carl for that, love you mate - well not really, but good saying!) and nobody can interrupt my flow 
Maybe that’s why I like blogging so?
Not too shabby and well beyond what I expected, albeit I was entirely exhausted almost the entire last two weeks and definately not being myself at all times. Not at all, sad part is you are always judged by these defining moments! Euro tours will do that to you!
Oh Well!
So what the fuck happened? Loads really, like doing 25 cities in 32 days was not enough, I decided that a mini love affair might make a good mix to the equation, boy was I wrong! (again)! LMFAO! (for those un-annointed, that means Laughing-My-Fucking-Ass-Off, LMFAO)!
In all fairness to the amazingly beautiful and beyond georgeous, smart as fuck, lovely young girl involved, my intentions were pure, however the rest was well lacking. Sorry Tara Jane, you know that wasn’t me and the rest as they say is history! I was plain exhausted and well on holiday - in more ways than one. I really think you’d be far better off with someone else, maybe someone more ordinary and lukewalm? Once again I need to laugh, sorry everyone - it’s how I cope (that was really a joke) Overshare? Fuck it, it’s what happened!
But in all seriousness I loved my time away and really wish I’d expressed myself differently. Maybe left people on the tour thinking that I actually enjoyed myself, shit I hope some did! Cos I really did! That said control has never been my strong point, either way, those that control, nor those that are controlled. It’s gay (need a better word, but that will do for now). I like my life and taking a step back into the past into something that I’d clearly have enjoyed when I was say younger, was quite a step away from today’s reality. The reality I created and need to start respecting in it’s entirety. Not only that, but I need to start respecting other people’s Bullshit, irrespective of whether they are right or not. You have no idea how hard that was to say! Baby steps…
I also managed to leave my camera charger and battery on the fucking bus when we left which sucks, so pics might be a little while away. Got some great pictures and vids though!
Life is funny and once again I feel weird. I cannot help but think everything is on track - albeit for the fact the everything is beyond out of control. Seriously, I mean everything!! Here’s a list to give you an idea:
1. Tomorrow = nfi
2. Finances = up the shit
3. Current debts = 5k
4. Currently owed = 4k
5. Potential contract hanging in the balance for 32 days too long = 12k/6mths
6. Love = distant
7. Hunger = satisfied
8. Alcoholic Liver = happy
So I guess it’s not that bad really. 7 unt 8 are all that really matter in times like these. But woe is poor me, I secretly love it. God these posts are getting worse. I really do miss all you guys at home, I really do. Love you all to bits!
So where to from here? Well to be honest I have NFI. I think I’m happy for this day. Tomorrow will be different and I cannot wait to tackle something different. More than likely either Ireland, Wales, or something stupid like India.
God freedom is a bitch!
August 4th, 2008 at 9:18 am
Welcome back from the bush Benzine. Sheesh… that’s a pretty hardcore post…i’m gonna have to go back over that one at another time (other then Monday morning)! Anyway good 2 hear you haven’t got pissed and charged a matador in a Volvo or somethin
August 4th, 2008 at 9:09 pm
Hey man sounds like a pure euro tour. Ireland sounds like a good plan, I regret not going. I might go to India at the end of the year to meet up with some peeps and trance out in Goa.
August 4th, 2008 at 9:13 pm
@Dave cheers man, I have a big ass post on way, I won’t spare the details, but what else would you expect
@Luke twas indeed, Ireland should be some fun, Goa sounds cool, like you need any more trancing out, lol. Any idea of a rough date? I’m thinking about xmas with family, but they never really liked me anyways
August 5th, 2008 at 3:24 pm
Impressive stuff… I thought my holiday was pretty good, but looking back it was pretty bland in comparison!
August 7th, 2008 at 9:25 am
sounds hectic, i’m just chilling in Å (pronounced “or”) - eight days in one little fishing village with big fucking mountains everywhere. We get an hour of twilight and the rest is perfect sunshine. Apparently the weather is only this good for one or two weeks a year so we really lucked out.
gonna hang out in oslo a few days after friday then back to bradford. Gotta figure out something to do for that week so maybe prague or something cheap. I’ll be in scotland for the last week of august before heading over to germany.
Norway is ridiculously expensive - gotta find a way to get paid in krone!!
har det bra!
August 10th, 2008 at 4:42 am
freedom does sound like a bitch.
and i hate you for it.
i’m trying to make the most of my time in sydney with my family and friends because i’ll more than likely take off again in the not too distant future- what do they say… live for the moment, it’s a blessing?
no shit.
anyway.
despite my wanderlust… and incurable case of the fidgets… i’m determined to live it up regardless of the location.
but i’m missing the contiki crew horribly and do wish i was back on the road.
don’t have regrets… life’s too short for that… and in the end you learned and appreciated and that’s all that matters.
when i look back on it contiki taught me more than i realised! i grew up more in the 6 weeks i was in europe than i have in the last 6 years in sydney. we were really blessed to have so many wonderful people to share it with hey! and it was the little things that really made my trip.
so now, i’ve had a wonderful, albeit short taste of freedom and want more.
glad that europe gave me something to strive for, as well as a chance to do what i love and the opportunity to meet so many awesome people.
so stoked that i got to share it with you too Benny!
stay safe.
keep writing.
Caitlin
xx